Fashion Addiction: Illest

I can't handle my self to write again, i think the last post isn't the last one for 2013 :p

"I" is for the way these beezies love how I bang,

And "double L" is for the way I blow that smoke in ya face,

We roll on "E's" and we be easy rollin that bank,

And "ST" is for the Illest shit we rep every day

Instantly got an inspiration to make an outfit-mix-n-match based on the music video. Thanks for Prohgress and Lil Debbie for those inspiration. I am wearing F21 black tee, unbranded nude chiffon shirt, H&M printed legging, mom's suspender, triangle necklace by F21, long necklace by blink!, and shoes....i wear nothin :p . Anyway, even tho' it's kinda hard to get the big size, you still can found some of them on F21 store and H&M store in Jakarta. Just use your hawk eye ;)

Before we start, i think you should watch the video first, so you won't get lost. 

feeling so mother fucking ill! 

pardon my messy room

As you see, my legging is coming from H&M, the size is XL...i guess. It's fits for me who has No. 38 for pants and the black tee is coming from F21, note it...note F21+ because they don't have it in Indonesia. And yes, you can get any cool stuff from those shop...use your eye and fight for it ;) Don't forget to try them before you go to the cashier. 

Fashion Addiction: I Do Shopping, So I am the Strong Woman ;)

"Most Women Cry

Strong Women Go Shopping"

That's the tagline of BEAUTY BOX Indonesia, a  store that offer you a different experience of having (and buying, of course) great beauty products. You may havent seen all those products in any store in Indonesia, but Beauty Box. To be honest, I haven't been there before, but my mom did few days ago. She went to Beauty Box Store at PVJ, Bandung when she did her office stuff there. She bought me (and also my dad & grandma) some perfumes and she also registered my self as a member there...whoa! There's one thing that fascinates me....

The 'package' from mom :D

That lil thing that fascinate moi ♥

Refillable Fragrance Atomizer by FLO

yap! That atomizer blew my mind away. It's small and handy! I am so happy to have that small little thing on my bag. I don't have to bring my 100 ml  perfume bottle in my bag. No need to worry about breaking the bottle and spill my bag with my favorite scent. And also, perfect for a traveler: you won't get stopped by the immigration officer :p 

If you want to buy it, then GO BUY IT ON THE NEAREST BEAUTY BOX! Before you go, you need to know how to use it.

Take off the smaller caps and you'll have your bottle like that

Pick your favorite perfume and push the perfume's head just like the picture for few times until the bottle is full of the perfume 

You can check the volume by take a look at the transparent side of the bottle. Make sure, when you're done, close the bottom part of the bottle so the liquid won't spill

Easy as ABC! I don't know about the price, but I'm sure you won't regret to have it ;) 

You can go to BEAUTY BOX store at

• Kota Kasablanka, Jakarta
• Grand Indonesia, Jakarta
• Mall Kelapa Gading 1, Jakarta
• Paris Van Java, Bandung
• TSM, Makasar

SPACE WRAP! ♥

Not His Story: Dear the General

Good night, sir!

How are you there with your love ? I am sure that both of you are in the greatest condition ever. I think i need to tell you something that kinda bother my study night. It's not a huge deal, but i think it's more than enough to make my heart broken.

Few hours ago, i heard my phone ringing and the first thing in my mind was...it must be you, the general. Then, in a flash, i just remembered that you've left me and all of your family last week to meet your love who also known as my role model, grandma. It hurt actually.....because to be honest, sir, i regret lot of things that i didn't do and i blame my self for it..because maybe, if i did it on the first place, you won't feel alone, just like what you said few weeks before your last breathe. And I really miss your evening call...asking me how's my day, where's my mom or dad, or asking everything that you wanna know about technology such as internet. I miss your call....

Yesterday, when i was in the mood to clean up my messy room, i found a blue hat that you gave to me . You said that i can keep it and bring it to your wife's grave so the sun won't kill my look, since you've known that the heat could kill my fabulous look by making me sweat a lot. I wore that hat yesterday and I remember all of those simple things that makes me close to you. 

Then...i remember lot of bad things that i've done to you, especially when I was in my darkest era. I stayed at your home and sometimes being so ignorance to your kindness. And when i was at my home and in the worst mood....you called me and i was also being kinda mean to you...and until this moment, i feel horrible for it.

I miss you so much sir....I miss the way you said "Cucu Akung" when i got good score or made you proud because of my achievement, I miss the moment when you 'kidnap' me to sit in front of you and let me speak about anything that you wanna hear, I miss the time when you read Yassin for your beloved wife on her grave with me, and the most important thing, I miss your call....

I am crying while typing those memories here, I am sure you know it, right? I am trying to keep myself busy with college just because i don't want to cry like now. The first week til the 40th day is the hardest time, right? Please tell God, that you want to see me not crying....

I think that's the end of my letter for you, Sir. Don't worry, God will take the good care of you and your wife. Send my huge love for your wife, please. 

Sincerely,

Your 2nd granddaughter who miss your call

Being Plus-Size Woman: Beat the Bully

People will always try to break you down. They may not mean it, but we will always think about it. It's human nature.

The only key to survive is just put your best smile and walk like a champion

because...

You Are

Some people may not realize that there's a bully in them. Everybody has the potential to be a bully. In my religion, being nice is something important and I guess, every religion teach the same way, right?!

I have some experience about being a bully and also being bullied. 

I am a girl with plus size body type. I have to work harder to get good clothes that fit with me. I have to deal with what people say about me: FAT. It's hurt, actually, because I am different with most people around me. My mom also a plus size too, but my life isn't only at home. Since elementary school, some boys call me fat. I dont give a damn about it because i don't care. But when I grow older, I am getting tired of being called FAT. Unfortunately, I don't have a strong commitment to work out to reduce my weight. It's just come and go like the wind. I prefer to do something more important than my health, let's say virtual life and real life assignment. I am a perfectionist and I will try my best to make no mistake for my work. Once again, unfortunately, I don't give my best shot if it comes to my body. 

I try to cover my speciality by not cutting my hair. I let it grow so it can cover my chubby face. But, I am not that kind of girl who love long hair. I would love to have it, but for this moment, it's just not me. 

Lately, I have another passion in fashion.  I have a dream to be a fashion blogger for plus size, so everyone who has the body like me can be more confidence to dress up and also by being a fashion blogger, I wish my confidence can be increase. I would love to inspired people by what I do for life. So, I try to mix and match the clothes that i have so it looks proper without being afraid to look different. I am still trying my best for my new passion. I wish one day it will paid off, Aamiin. 

Making that dream come true isn't easy. I got some comment about my body size. I was almost cried because it came from my closest people. It's hurt...very hurt..I feel like I don't get the support that I needed. It took a minute for me to realize that...maybe they don't really mean it. They just say it as a joke. Eventhough it's hurt. So i put my smile back on my face and just being funny to them and BAM! They don't say any word to me. 

After that moment, I realize something............the feel of someone who has been bullied by people...maybe including me. 

Having an authority can bring the bully inside of our body out for a moment. Being kinda mean to others because we're more powerful than others. It feels nice for while...until something bad happened to you. People who get bullied can be a bully one day....because they want others to feel what they had before. But if it's happened, bullying can be a devil's circle in life, it won't stop until you decide to go out or decide to never start it. 

It's important for everyone who has been bullied but friends/family in real or virtual life, to be a smart person. You have to be stronger than them. It's hard at the first time but in the end, you will be very proud of yourself. It's uncountable number of bullying victim just because they don't have someone to talk to. Be brave! talk to someone. Family is the first place that you can choose. By doing that, you can beat the bully! 

Positive mind is very important to be strong. Take your time to think clearly, by taking time i mean stay away from social life for a moment (don't take too long dear), breathe, say a good word to motivate you, and talk to others about it. Sharing is caring, right?!

Your smile, means death to the bully. Don't be afraid to put the smile on your face :)

I believe, by doing that you can beat the bully in you. Simple, because you know how it feels to be bullied. 

Have a great time! and Good Luck

Fashion Addiction: The Fresh Start

Alhamdulillah, all Moeslem in the world already finished the Ramadhan Kareem 1434H and also already celebrating the first day of Hari Raya. For myself, this Ramadhan is the most productive Ramadhan ever for some reasons and still can't believe that Ramadhan leaving us very quickly this year. Hopefully, we can meet again with 1435's Ramadhan, Amiin.

On the First Syawal, I went to my grandparents' house in Bogor and Kebayoran Baru, South Jakarta. I decided to wear the dress that I bought at X to X Pondok Indah and also BATA's Nude Wedges that I bought months ago. My mom told me to dress differently this year. Yap, I am not a lady who loves dresses and girly shoes. That's why wore all of those items made me feel like a lady..LOL. My family kinda amazed to see my look at that time. Asymmetrical hair with lady look..yeah..just..not me

On the Third day of Syawal, I went to my Grandfather's graveyard to pray for him and also to but one of Jakarta's Traditional Food that I love: Kerak Telor. 

Best weapons for delicious and tasty Kerak Telor

Nyumy!

Then, Me and my parent continue our journey to Pondok Indah Mall to find some books for my Mom's assignment and some clothes for...me. And my journey lead me to them

Gren Swimming Googles by ARENA (Available in Gramedia) + Coral Knit Top by Forever 21 + Coral Long Skirt by Forever 21

Feeling...Fishy !

Hello | What?! |Yes, I am Strong!

Basically, I am going to make Syawal as my fresh start. I want to be a much better person for myself and everyone around me. I'm trying new thing to boost my confidence which I need for my future. And my first step to reach it is by dressing up, at least, wearing different kind of outfit that I never thought I wore. Just like what Lao Tze Said:

Confidence is the greatest friend

It's a lie if we don't want to have a great friend, right?! Just because people aren't perfect, that's why we need to have confidence as our friend.  

We can boost our confidence in many ways. Some of my friends join music activity to boost their confidence, my mom joined some extra class to improve her skill and also her confidence, and I choose my own way by dressing up lil bit differently. 

To be honest, I got inspired by some curvy bloggers such as Tanesha Awasthi from Girl With Curves, Nicolette Mason from nicolette mason, and RoJo from Beauti Curve.

I know they are from USA, not Indonesia whose have lot of people with small and normal size body type, so they can be free to explore themselves. I still feel that people in my country will judge someone or mock someone with plus size body. I also believe that it happens to Americans Plus Size Fashion Bloggers too. But they live in a free place and they also born to be free. 

I saw some plus size ladies on magazine and i havent found their blog til today. I wish I can be one of plus size fashion blogger one day that can help me to boost my confidence :)

Be confidence and walk like a boss 8)

Have a great day and enjoy the Hari Raya Holiday :D

Crafty Mind: Binder and Chork-board Arrangement

He's true and I believe in the same way

I do agree with Mr. Soyinka, a Nigerian writer. Looking at others' work can inspire us to do something. To be honest, the reason why I re-make my blog because I saw other's blog and I think I can do something more for my blog, yes..I got inspired by seeing someone's work.

Beside my blog, I also re-Make some of my stuff at home because I got inspired by someone's work. I re-Make  my binder for next semester by covering it with Spiderman-Comic-Gift-Wrap, put a great quote  and great fashion picture behind the front and back cover, and also put my post-its for write down my assignment.

Class wont be so boring anymore! :p

And then, I also re-arrange my chorkboard!

Before the Make Over

The first Phase of Make Over

The Final Result!

and my Cousin's board? yap, designed by me :p

Arranged by ME! ♥

And right now, I am looking for doing something more....

Fashion Addiction: My Addiction for F21

I had no idea about this collection before. After saw one of Forever21 posts on Instagram, I did lil research about it, include asking @Forever21Indo about that. Too bad, the answer kinda turn me down...

*sigh*

As I mention on the previous post, I have plus size body. I need, at least, size 16 for clothes (XL). F21 in Jakarta has some of their collection in my size but not that much. So I have to find harder to get what i need. I wish one day, F21 Indonesia will have F21+ collection on their nearest store ;)

I did a lil research about F21+, and I am so happy to find some of their 2013 collection. Even though I can't get them all in Indonesia, but at least i have the reference to find the similar style and also reference to mix and match my outfit.

The latest collection named CONCRETE JUNGLE. Combination of rain-forest color, animal print clothes, and edgy accessories make this collection suits with the city exploration..because city is the modern jungle, right?

1. Elephant Parade Necklace
2. City Chick Bandage Skirt
3. Cutout Stiletto Sandals
4. Stepping Out Zippered Top

For their Summer Collection, they named it Desert Daydream which contains almost similar collection but without the animal print. For this collection, we can get along with tribal prints which is more...human..anyway, I do love this collection because of my latest addiction of tribal prints.

1. South Western Skinny Jeans
2. Cutout Geo Bib
3. Cutout Tribal Tank ♥
4. Multi Colored Tribal Scarf

During 2013's Spring, their Sweet in Sherbet offer calmness with the pastel color and fun with the sweet combination with some metallic effect. The color really makes me want to get Baskin Robbins' Rainbow Sherbet :3

1.Striped Longline Sweater
2. Hidden Wedge Sneakers
3. Patent Leatherette Clutch
4. Pink-Grey Sunglasses

I wish i could have enough money to buy them all :p And actually, when F21+ comes to Indonesia, I can be part of it :D

Fashion Addiction: My Best Buy

My favorite Style for this month

I have plus size body. I have to wear at least size 16 for top and pants. It's kinda hard to get those on local shop. I have to visit big shop to get all the clothes that I need and I should face the reality that not every kind of clothes has size 16 and above.

Here are the list of my favorite shop and I totally recommend for everyone who has plus size to visit these store:

1. Forever 21 : I love this shop SO MUCH! Eventhough not all of their collection has my size, but i love to visit this store for the atmosphere. Beside the clothes, i do adore their jewellery and shoes! The price is pretty friendly. [Pondok Indah Mall 1 and Grand Indonesia]
2. Giordano : This store offer casual outfit. I love the price range and also the color. My favorites: Their cardigan, their color block tee, and their cropped tee! [Pondok Indah Mall 2 ]
3. X to X: It's local brand. The price is quite similar to F21 and Giordano. They offer from 1X to 8X if im not mistaken. [South Skywalk Pondok Indah Mall ]
4. Marks & Spencer: The prices are quite high, but if you're smart enough to come at special moment, you can get basic outfit with great price. I bought 1 basic long sleeve tee for 199.000 and get one for free (same style,) [Pondok Indah Mall 2, Senayan City ]
5. New Look: Great price with great style! My second option, beside F21, to get the outfit with the latest style. Plus size available. My best found: High Waisted Jeans in my size! [Pondok Indah Mall 1, Senayan City ]

My best find from my favorite stores

1. Flowery Shoes from F21 (size 9) : around 320.000IDR
2. Brown Folk Print Top from New Look (Size 16): around 190.000IDR
3. Spring Jelly Sandal from F21 (size 9): around 160.000IDR
4. Navy High Waisted Jeans from New Look: around 320.000IDR
5. Black Basic Top from M&S: 199.000 IDR
6. Dress from XtoX: around 200.000IDR

Note: I can't found any good picture of my find from Giordano

Midnight Madness

Do anything before 2 am

It's 0.27 on the second day of August. I am still awake just because i had 4 hours nap before. My brain keep pushing me to do something. I finished my photo-share-session on the fanbase (@BTRIndonesia) on 9 PM and then re-create my blog. I've decided to delete my previous blog for a reason:

It's getting random

 It's been a while since my last post on my previous one. I have no idea to write, so i think making a fresh start is a great idea to entertain myself and probably others. Here I am...0.27 writing for my first post in this blog. I named it  サマー if you can't read it...it's katakana for SUMMER.

 Lately, I have an addiction about summer stuff, so i use that word for my blog. 

Please, feel free to enjoy my blog and share your thought about it.